Conquering 'High School Reunion' Fear
Thank you Pam !!! |
It sounds stupid but its true! There are women out there are weirdly
suffering from high school reunion fear. I actually thought I needed
therapy for such a disturbing 'disorder' only to find out that I am not
alone in my vain battle.
therapy for such a disturbing 'disorder' only to find out that I am not
alone in my vain battle.
There could be a million and one reasons for high school reunion fear.
I was in denial for months, perfectly comfortable coming up with reasons
why I couldn't go to all the meetings, reunions and the grand
homecoming of my batch.
homecoming of my batch.
In my mind my excuses were valid. I am busy working from Monday to
Friday. I spend the entire Saturdayin school, while Sunday is
my only time to breath.
my only time to breath.
There will always be more important things to do plus my reasons were firm. I was busy, busy, busy, and yet somehow I turn green
with envy, envy envy every time I see their crazy photos on Facebook.
Whenever I would learn of a dinner get together, I would initially get
so excited about going. I would even text some of classmates to ask if they are going. However on the day of the actual event, lo and behold I never show up.
It was like a most feared plague yet deep inside I knew I needed to
conquer it for my own piece of mind. I remember raising several points
as why it would be best for me to skip high school reunions.
One of the main reason was that I wouldn't know how to control my
passion should the conversation turn to politics or controversies involving
myself or members of my family. As my name suggests I have a tendency
to be very "defensive."
Secondly, I felt that such get-together is only meant for the ladies of
leisure, my fortunate batch mates who blessed with time on their hands.
It was illogical for busy working Moms like myself to find a place in such
pleasurable events.
Yes, it sounds stupid, which is why I decided to put an end to it.
Last night I attended my first high school reunion in 12 years.
The experience was most overwhelming. I wanted to stick a gun
to my head. How can I allow myself to be controlled by such idiotic fear.
I felt like a moron, a happy moron at least. Had I conquered such
chickenheartedness early on, then bliss would have crawled into my
stressful life sooner.
I purposely made sure that I didn't think long and hard if I should attend,
for if I dwell on this further, chances are, I will end up now showing up, again.
I never realized that reconnecting with high school friends can bring
joyous rapture to my routinary life.
joyous rapture to my routinary life.
There was such openness in the humorous exchange like endless
jokes about ..............
- Happy's hot flashes (sige na ga, ako din) plus her precision memory
- Jenny Tip's BFF (pa share naman daw).
- Vingle's nursing ability (yes, she is a registered nurse)
- Michaela's newly developed skill for circumcision (she's an orthodontist by profession)
- the hot loves and lives of ___________ guess who?
Don't forget the cutey chinito server who was nice enough to take
our photos with six cameras. No wonder everyone was smiling
with utmost radiance.
Yes, talks are underway for equally fun get togethers like the opening of Tribu in Riverside, Marikina (right Happy and Jenny?)
and all other events and opportunities which I now consider very
significant.
significant.
So what if I slave through graduate school on weekends,
for another evening like this I wouldn't mind losing sleep.
At least now, the feeling of envy no longer haunts me when I see
Facebook postings for MCHS '85 events.
Facebook postings for MCHS '85 events.
Here's to more exciting evenings girls! I will see you soon!
So glad you decided to join us, Tet! Nothing like female bonding time! And at our age when we've shed our inhibitions, the sharings, laughter and camaraderie are so genuine. Looking forward to the next one, too. :)
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